Is It Normal?

I can’t imagine anyone who can hate themselves as much as I do at times.

Do You Want To Be Me?

Worthless…

Not even my shadow is worth it.

It’s My Own Fault.

Enough said. I won’t even go into detail as to how, because I’m that pathetic compared to the others out there.

Fuck It.

I try to think like this and most times, when I manage to space out on medication, then this is what happens. I hate to say it, but it’s the truth. It can be one of the best feelings in the world – not caring.

What Scares Me…

That’s not what really scares me because it’s something that I already know and sometimes I can say that I have come to terms with it. Other times it hurts. What really scares me though, is the few people that I do have who miraculously love me (why I don’t know). I might lose them because I know that I’m not good enough for them. They don’t deserve someone as fucked up as I am. I’m terrified that one day they’ll realize that.

I’m Not Enough…

It’s quite simple really. At the moment I feel it’s stating the truth…